Missing You

Princess Diaries

   Since I was young I was dreaming of becoming a princess. I was so happy watching television shows that is having that character.I feel envious to things that they have, the clothes that they wear, the foods that they eat and most probably the way that the people treated them. when I am alone, I imagine myself wearing different designs of gowns and pairs of shoes, expensive jewelries and gems, living inside a wide castle, and of course wearing a beautiful crown under my head.

   But in spite of those illusions, that I think will never come true, I remember  how my parents treated me. they are considering me as their beloved princess. It is because I am their only daughter. They are supporting me and giving me all I want as long as they know that what I'm wishing from them is a necessarily needed. That is why sometimes my brother thinks that our parents are not paying equal attention between the two of us. And being their only daughter they are very protective. Most especially in having a boyfriend. They do not want me to be in a relationship because they believe that person will only ruind my focus to my studies.But being a teen-ager I think my life would not be complete if I am not able to experience those things. And instead of listening with their advice, I try to engage myself in a boy and girl relationship which is strictly prohibited by my parents.

   At that time I was in in fourth year high school and all of my three best friends are having their boyfriends and I am the only one among our group who is not having that. And when we are having a talk and having fun together they are always telling me that why don't you try to have a boyfriend, it feels so happy. And by that words came from my friends whom I really trust that time I said to myself that why don't I try? I also wanted to feel what they feel. From that situation that happen, I tell them that I also wanted to have a boyfriend because every time that you are talking about love I am always feel out of place. Until one morning one of my best friend bring his boy cousin to meet me and we became friends until such a long time that we fall in love with each other. I feel so happy when I am with him. He is my first boyfriend. And from that moment that I answer him he use to call me "MY PRINCESS". With his companion I feel how to be treated as a princess by his prince charming. He is sweet, kind, caring and a loving person. He is always there to comfort me and make me feel how to be respected by the one you really love. And that relationship lasted for more than three years without knowing by my parents.
   But there is no secret that will be kept forever, until such a time that one of my Auntie saw me having a date with that guy and she tell it to my parents. From that situation my parents got angry with me and threaten me that if I will not end our relationship I will stop studying. By that I choose to leave him even if I know that we really love each other. Yet, I have to follow my parents for they are the ones who know whats the best for me. But until now, I still have feelings from him that I cannot truly deny. And when I remember all those memories that we've made, tears from my eyes are slowly falling. I find myself missing his presence. But I still believe i our promise that if we are meant for each other, we do not have to dictate what destiny's offers us. We will have to wait for the right time and the right place that our both path will meet again and because "GOD HAVE PLANS AND HE KNOWS WHAT IS THE BEST FOR THE TWO OF US".